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Sampah #13

2012-01-20T18:30:00.000-08:00

bangun pagi ini
aku termenung memikir
mungkin ada hikmah
di sebalik tribulasi jiwa

seorang kawan berkata;

"Anyway, u were prepare for this. so, its time to move on to a better fishes out there. On the bright side, u now have more to choose from. dun give up hope..."

lantas aku alirkan
segala aura positif
ke dalam minda ini
supaya hidup ini
kembali 'happy'

aku buangkan jauh-jauh
rasa yang 'tahi' itu
agar dapat aku layarkan
hidup yg lebih tenteram dan jitu

p/s: Lets go and pump some iron.

Sampah #12

2012-01-19T19:38:00.000-08:00

FRIDAY..

Thank God its Friday

i want to meet her on saturday

plan to buy a flower pink roses perhaps

Famous Amos chocolate chip cookies.

and The Curve port baekk kot.

SATURDAY

Today is the day

Roses (Checked!)

Famous Amos (Checked!)

The Curve (parking availibility Checked!)

Now,

just wait

and wait

and.......

"Awak, sorry.. saya tak dapat jumpa awak hari ini. Next time la yer..."

Hampa...

Punohhhh...

Hiba...

A couple of texts on Whatsapp screw everything up.

Balik laaa....

SUNDAY

Noon...
At Wangsa Walk CF

Just finished Workout
Check Wildfire
Check Whatsapp Messenger

She's online..

"Awak free tak hari ni?"

No Answer...

Walk to the ROTIBOY
and saw her
Agak terkejut

"Who is that guy?"

They are holding hands
Mesraaaa...

He is very lucky
and i'm the loser.

MONDAY

...................................................

Sampah #11

2012-01-19T19:34:00.001-08:00

Kamu sedih
Kamu terluka
Kamu membenci
Tapi
Aku tetap memahami

Kamu rasa lonely
Kamu rasa sepi
Kamu rasa sunyi
Tapi
Kamu tak sedar
Aku selalu disini

Kamu happy
Kamu suka hati
Kamu nampak riang sekali
Sebab
Aku yang bikin kamu senang hati

Tolong senyum
Jgn bersedih
Kamu kuat
Kamu hebat
Dia tinggalkan kamu
Tapi
Aku akan sentiasa ada untuk kamu
Hari hari
Sampai aku mati

Sampah #10

2012-01-19T19:14:00.000-08:00

1st time i saw u

kat Facebook

Not stalking u

but u suddenly appear

kat my 'People You May Know' tab

2nd time i saw u

after i add u

not ur cute face that attract me

but ur pretty eyes behind the instrument u like to hangout with

3rd time i saw u

well,

it upset me a bit

coz its u with a guy

i thought he was ur friend

but clearly he is more than that

the 4th time this time
we accidently met
when i was in the rush
u recognised and say 'hi' to me
which i definitely never forget

now came the 5th time i saw u
u were very happy
of course with that guy u see
i was frustrated indeed
and pray that u will always be happy

a year later

last time i saw u
u r sad
u r ignoring me
u just silence
didn't make a word

a few month later..........

i saw u again for the 7th times
u look different then before
brighter then before
more fetterless then before

i only making an assumption
theoritize about ur life but

Sometimes...

i wonder whats going on
i wonder what happen to u
i wonder u whether u have fulfilled ur dreams
and i wonder will i ever see u again

if only u know...

that u r the one who planted the seeds
that after a year it blooms into an immortal roses
my only wish is
if only u could give me a 2nd chance
to give back this roses to u.

Sampah #9

2012-01-19T05:45:00.000-08:00

Duduk aku pada daerah ini

menjenguk jendela

mendongak langit yg gelita

sepi

hanya dingin angin malam

menyapa pipi

Duduk aku di daerah ini

Yang baru merasai pedih

Selepas bertatih mencipta realiti

Sepi juga yg kembali menyelubungi

Di daerah ini aku terus merenung langit

Melantun-lantun rasa hati

Mungkin natijah pengorbanan ini

Mengharapkan kegembiraan dia

Moga korban ini

Bawa bahagia buatnya

Di daerah sepi ini

Aku mendongak langit

Allahu Rabbi...

Mohon rasa ini tidak berpanjangan...

p/s: rindu awk sangat2...

Sampah #8

2012-01-18T19:12:00.000-08:00

Reminiscing...

Tibe tibe teringat masa aku mula-mula nak kenal kamu dulu.
Dulu takde Fesbuk mcm skrg.
Takde twitter nak follow kamu mcm skrg.
Yahumesenjer pun tak reti pakai sgt.
Henpon 3310 je la jadi penghubung.

Puas berusaha
Dapat la no tepon kamu
Mula la kalam kabut
Ape nak buat pun tak tahu
"kau miskol je dulu," kata Abu
Aku pun miskol kamu
Tiada miskol balik

Esoknya
"One messege recieved"

Open....

"siapa ni yer?"
Aku senyum..
Nokia mmg "Connecting people".

(Selepas 4 bulan)

Hubungan jarak jauh ni mmg tak best
Nak2 plak aku je yang perasan lebih
Kan best kalau dia ada depan mata
Takde la rasa 'loser' sangat mcm skrg ni

"hye there, i'm in town. Lets meet tonyt"

Whoahh..
Dia ade kt kl laa
Nak jumpa ke tak

Nak jumpa ke tak

"jumpa je laaa!"
Kata Abu..

"ok. Jumpa u kt klcc k?..."

Hampir tiap2 saat mengelap peluh dimuka
Hampir setiap detik check rambut kt cermin
Pening nak pakai baju apa
Kasut pun pinjam abu punya
Aku tak mahu nampak "loser"

Naik lrt sampai klcc
Demmit, aku sorang dia bertiga
"hi, how are u" jadi pembuka kata
Pastu senyap dia plak dok sembang dgn kawan kawan dia.

"lets take a picture of u two together"
"boleh jgk," aku kata
"eh, tak payah lah." kata si dia
Nmpk sgt aku "loser"
Aku yg tergedik dia cool ajer.

Today (8 years since that 1st date)

"I used to b in love with u. I felt for ur smile. I said it everytime we spoke. U want us to be friends. I want more than that. Bcoz u r my first love. U said we were not meant to be. But today u are my wife.

Happy anniversary hun...

Sampah #7

2012-01-18T19:02:00.000-08:00

I wonder why i still thinking about you

I wonder why i still need to care

You are nothing but the pain

You're nothing but the devil

I wonder why i still thinking about you

I wonder why i still care

You broke my heart into pieces

You crushed my soul perfectly

After all this years

the suffering

the pain

the hate

the heartache

I just wanna say Thank you
From the bottom of my heart

Thank you..........

Sampah #6

2012-01-17T19:00:00.000-08:00

Kita bertemu

Kita berkawan

Kita bersahabat

Kemudian Kamu menjadi teman

Dunia tidak lagi sepi

Hari ke hari

Suara 'jantan' mu itu menghiasi ruang hidup ini

Kita berjumpa

Kita ber'dating'

Kita mendengar 'live band'

Kunang-Kunang jadi saksi

Tiba-tiba kau diam

Suara garaumu tidak lagi kedengaran

Hidupku kembali resah

Sunyi bertemankan gelisah

Hari demi hari
Kau bikin aku sasau
Kau bikin aku risau
Kau buka hijab kebodohan
Yang selama ini hanya kau yang diperlihatkan

Itu semua cerita lalu
Kalau diizinkan Yang Maha Satu
Inginku berterima kasih kepada kamu
Sebab kamu, aku menjadi AKU semula

"You never wanted to be anybody's girlfriend, and now you're someone's wife?"

"Either she's an evil, emotionless, miserable human being, or... she's a robot."

"Boy meets girl. Boy falls in love. Girl doesn't."

Sampah #5

2012-01-17T18:55:00.000-08:00

Siang tadi

ternampak kamu

ku atur langkah untuk dekati

namun

kakiku kaku

Siang tadi

kamu masih di situ

bagaikan sekuntum bunga

mekar di sinar mata hari

Siang tadi

aku berdiri di situ

mengharapkan ada kudrat

menegur kamu walau sepatah ayat

Siang tadi

Kamu yang di situ

Memandang aku di sini

Mulut kaku

tapi tidak tangan aku

Siang tadi
Kamu senyum
Aku melambai

.....

Tak ada apa yang aku inginkan
Melainkan aku konklusikan kisah hari ini
dengan senyumanmu
Wahai puteri negeri bawah bayu
Semoga Tuhan pelihara senyuman mu itu
Selalu

Sampah #3

2012-01-17T05:22:00.000-08:00

Tak semua orang paham
Bila kita cuba nak bagi orang paham
Tak semua orang suka
Bila kita utarakan pendapat

Ramai yang mahu menang
Menegakkan jarum yang basah
Kononnya sudah lama makan garam
"Kau yang muda sila duduk diam!"

Natijahnya orang muda melopong
Nak menjawab
Di tuduh biadap
Di cemuh "mak bapak tak ajar!"
Di hambat dengan kata "kurang ajar!"

Sampah #2

2012-01-11T18:45:00.000-08:00

We started as friends

But something happened inside me

Now I'm reading into everything

But there's no sign you hear the lightning

You don't ever notice me turning on my charm

Or wonder why I'm always around

I've made it obvious

Done everything but sing it

I just want you to know

I've crushed on you so long

I'm not so good with words

And since you never notice

The way that we belong

I'll say it in a love song

You are my very first thought in the morning

And my last at nightfall

You are the love that came without warning

I just want you to know

I more then adore you

But you never seem to see

I'll say it in this love song

Sampah #1

2012-01-08T05:50:00.000-08:00

Lelaki itu
Berubah dia kerana "sesuatu"
Lelaki itu
Berubah dia kepada yang baru
Hari-hari
Senyum terukir
Hari-hari
Tidak lagi sepi
Mungkin ini yg terakhir
Lelaki itu berharap
Pencariannya berakhir
Mohon dia pada yang Satu
Jika sudah diketemu
Moga berpanjangan jangka "sesuatu" itu

Ya Rabb,
Perkenankan Doa ini
Agar jiwa ini tidak lagi sepi
Agar berpanjangan senyum ini

#1 PILOT

2011-12-08T18:05:00.000-08:00

Hi

Dah lama tak blogging tapi hari ni aku nak start blogging balik. tapi blog yang ini aku nak gunakan untuk one purpose only. Sharing aku punya pengalaman untuk KURUS. ye.. KURUS. sebab sebelom ni aku sgt gemok. so skrg aku xde la kurus sepenuhnya, tapi kecik la sikit dari dulu.

RAYA 2010

Konvo angah 2009

'The Gebus' on stage

With some of my international friend during IAB trip at the end of 2009

di atas adalah sebahagia dari gambar-gambar aku masa di masa lepas. therefore, segala suka duka, pahit manis, kesakitan, tensions dan sewaktu dengannya akan aku paparkan kat dalam blog ini. Feel free kalau korang nak kritik ke, nak kutuk ke, nk judge ke ape ke. aku tak kisah. asalkan ada sesuatu yang aku dapat share dan dapat dijadikan pengajaran dan iktibar buat aku dan korang-korang yang sudi baca.

Aku yg sekarang

so, This is My Ride.

take care now, bubye then

HappyBirthdayToMe

2011-03-10T19:05:00.000-08:00

Below are some tweets that I tweeted this morning:

Just woke up
And its my birthday today
Dear lord, its getting closer to the big 30
I wonder what have i achieved my entire life
A so-called the 'great achievement'
All i know losing weight is one part of it
Perhaps one of the biggest achievement in me life
Some people in my 'new' age haa already achieve lots in their life
Me?
Nothing
Yet...

My goodness...
It has been one hell of a ride
Sometimes in that slow lane, sometimes inthe fast lane.
After all the brokedown and a bumpy ride
The ride need to keep on moving
With no intention to look behind
Whats left of me is the lesson learned
And Points taken
Keep my options open
Start the engine
Accelerate and move on

I only have one more wish since i've close enuf to accomplish my primary wishes (to lose weight)
I need a girl
Not just any girl
The one that will complete me
The person that i will sing a love song to
The one that can accept who i am
And one day if the day may come, the person for me to come home everyday and kiss her forehead..
Thats all i want this year.
Not iphone 4Gs
Next year will be 2012
May the happiness chase the lonelines away...

Happy birthday to me

Cheers~